Happy

Every once in a while, I get into a slump. A little bit of a rut, or ditch that I need to climb out of.
In a rut.
Peaks and Valleys.
Ebbs and Flows.
Waxes and Wanes.
Highs and lows.

After all, I am human ya know.

I will even be honest and say that some of my valleys or ruts are bouts of mild depression. I just don't wanna talk about anything (a true rarity for me!), go anywhere, blog about anything, be productive, or have any fun. I just kinda want to wallow.  Again, this is only every so often. There's no medical conditions underlying here or anything for you to be concerned about. I'm just human - remember?

The good news is truly the Good News.  My little downer bouts don't last more than a day or two. They are never so bad that I would think of ever harming myself or anybody around me. I don't let the things that bring me down control my every thought or choice.  I simply just get ... ya know... bummed.  And, frankly - like so many Americans, my little downer episodes tend to surface in or around November/December.

Yesterday was the end of my little 3-4 day journey through the land of woe-is-me. And the thing that pulled me out of it was nothing more than a simple conversation with God.  After praying for a while, I randomly got a Matthew West song stuck in my head.
Here are the lyrics:

Matthew West - Happy

Three o'clock
Tripping down the sidewalk
Looking like a fool with a pocket full of questions
I was living in the worry
Moving in a hurry
In the wrong direction
But then
Suddenly it hit me
Doesn't really matter 'cause I got you with me
I think I don't have to be so
Down, down, down, down, down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy

Three thirty
Got a little dirty
Fear stuck it's foot out and I tripped on the same lie
That voice screaming into my head
Pushing me to play dead
Saying "don't you even try"
But how can I claime to be free
When I carry more chains the world when they see me?
I don't wanna be the fool who stays
Down, down, down, down down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy

Now I'm not talking 'bout a smile so fake
While the world takes pictures 24/7
I just want my faith to be a little more real
What you see is what you get
What you see is how I feel

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy

 How perfect that is. How true and perfect and how I needed to pay attention to those lyrics yesterday. How wonderful it is that my Creator - the one who Loves me so, would bring this song back to my attention when I was ready to listen again.

It feels so good to be back to myself again. These little downers don't come along very often - but when they do, it really reminds me how awesome it is to be alive ... really alive.
Maybe that's cheesy?  But, that's how I feel! :)