Thursday, November 20, 2008

Feeling sorry for myself

I wonder why I'm so irritable. Let's make a list, m'kay!?
  • Julia was sick last weekend, with diahrreah and some vomiting - just a 24 hour bug that she bounced back from very quickly, but it still ruined the weekend for all of us.
  • Husby got that bug the next day - Sunday. Further ruining the *rest* of the weekend. Poor guy! I did/do feel bad for him, but this left me with doing all the weekend chores by myself... groceries, cleaning, etc.
  • Monday, Julia started this ear ache business that is still bothering her today... four days later.
  • Rebecca got a new tooth on Monday - and has been working on the other one all week long... resulting in lots of snot and crying. It's painful growing teeth. Luckily, she's been sleeping through some of it. But, is still waking up miserable at night.
  • The daycare kids are wonky for some reason... many of them are teething, some are just adjusting their nap schedules. It's been a struggle for me to just keep everybody happy lately - which leaves little time for arts and crafts, which is the fun part of my job.
  • We've been behind on the dishes and laundry all week long. That's never a feel-good feeling.
  • I'm leaving for Colorado in one more week - a trip that's sure to be filled with stress and tension as well as fun and festivities. Above all, saddness that I actually chose to leave my girls over the holiday :( I'm not getting cold feet or anything... they're pretty well frozen solid at this point.
  • I'm tired and cranky and can't keep up with myself.
And now? I feel a little better.

I know what the remedy is:
I need to go for a run. I was doing so good going 3-4 times a week and now I haven't been since last Wednesday. I also need some alone time. I enjoy Wednesday evenings when Juila is at dance class... this is when I'm alone in the car, reading a book or meditating, while she's in class - it's great! But, last night, Julia lost her priviledge of going to dance class. And husby had to go to bed early because his work sucks and they make him come in at obscene hours of the night, so it was me and the kids again.

So? As soon as all the kids leave my house today. As soon as dinner is made, eaten, cleaned up. As soon as I have clean socks for tomorrow. As soon as I catch up on my paperwork because my menus need to be submitted before I leave for Colorado if I want to claim them and get paid from the food program. As soon as the girls go to bed. As soon as toys are sanitized and put away for me to start all over again tomorrow. As soon as I hear that our Aunt is doing okay from having hip surgery today. As soon as I go for a run and take a shower.As soon as all that is done? I'm going to have to decide: do I catch up on some ME time? Or, do I go to bed.
Such is my life this week.

No comments: